Poetry
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 My name is Kevin, I am 26 yrs old from Tennessee. I graduated from Shelbyville Central High School in 1991 and am currently enrolled in Harcourt Learning Institute (an at home study course) for Business Management and Accounting. I have been writing poetry for a little over two years now, but, have been writing since high school. I was part of the staff of the school paper for three years. Three to four years after graduating, I started writing a novel. I am still working on this novel, and should have it finished and ready to publish soon, I hope. A lot of the poetry I currently write is about loss, because of a recent breakup. I started writing when I came out, to help with the thoughts I was having, the confusion involved in such a decision. It has helped me tremendously and I hope my words can help others.

 

My Inner Child
 
I stand here looking back at my past
And wonder where I went wrong
What made me the way I am today
What changed me in this way
I stand here looking back at my past
And wonder what it would have been like
To not have been the way it was
My past made me who I am
I stand here today surrounded by friends
For the first time in my life I’m surrounded by friends
What makes me different
What makes me feel alone
I often wonder what my life would have been
If not for my past being what it was
I stand here now looking back at my past
Glad of what pain I’ve been through
What anger I’ve faced
The love I’ve gained
And lost
The happy times
Coupled with the sad
My past made me who I am today
I stand here reflecting on the past
Hopeful of a future
A future filled with all the same pleasure
And yes all the same pain
For I wouldn’t be who I am today
Were it not for my past
My inner child has grown with great pride
And shines with all the colors of the rainbow
 

 
Three Simple Words
 
 
Three simple words.
When I say them to you,
It comes from the bottom of my heart.
Where does it come from when you say them?
 
Three simple words.
When I hear them,
My spine tingles with delight.
 
Three simple words.
When you say them,
Do you mean it?
Truly, Deeply, Mean it?
 
Three simple words.
Sometimes they aren't so simple.
As a matter of fact,
Sometimes they get stuck in my throat
But, with you,
They are simple.
 
I Love You.
 
 

 
 
Close to me
 
I can’t help but sit here and think of you
Your scent still surrounds me
Your voice still singing in my ear
The touch of your hand still felt upon my shoulder
I can’t help but wonder
Are you doing the same
The feel of your body next to mine
I hardly know you
You barely know me
I feel so close
The feel of your lips pressed against mine
I can’t help but sit here and think of you
Your skin so soft to touch
Your hand as it holds mine
Those deep brown eyes
The windows to your soul
I can’t help but wonder
Are you as captivated by me
As I am of you
The sound of your laughter
That look in your eyes
The way you walk
I think about you all day
Is this love
Or some other emotion
Could I possibly care about someone else
I can’t help but sit here and think of you
I wonder if you got enough sleep
How you did through your day
I could call and ask
Don’t want to push you away
That’s the last thing I’d want to do
Could I be in love
Could you feel the same
I wonder
Just simply
Wonder

 
Clouds
 
I stand alone on a mountain top
Hidden in the clouds high above a city
Full of family and friends.
 
I stand here waiting for a sign that
My life will continue without you.
 
I'm afraid I will be waiting on this
Mountain a long time, alone.
 
I stand in the middle of a crowded room
In the midst of friends and strangers alike
Yet I feel alone without you near me.
 
I stand here watching you interact
With other people and feel jealous
That you are not taking up my time any longer
As if you've found better use of your time.
 
I shouldn't be jealous of anything you do or don't do
We are best friends, nothing more, nothing less
Yet I still miss not seeing you or being with you.
 
I stand on a mountain top in the clouds
High above a busy city I am surrounded
By family and friends both old and new
Yet am alone and envious of everyone around me.
 
I stand here trying to let go of a love I could never have
Saying I have in fact let go
When in reality I have not and can not.
 
I stand at the foot of a mountain
Looking up into the clouds and wonder
How did I get here?
 
 

 
In my arms
 
 
I want to know what it feels like
To have you inside me
I want to know what it's like to be held
To be held and loved by another man
I want to know what it feels like
To wake up beside you in the morning
With you in my arms
I want to know what it feels like
To take a shower with you
To wash your body as I wash mine
I want to show you how much love I have
How much love I can share
I want to know what it feels like
To be loved by you
I want to know how it feels
To have someone to come home to
Someone to cook dinner for
I want to sit with you and watch a movie
To lay in your lap as you caress my body
I want to know what it feels like
For you to fall asleep in my arms
And take you to bed
Show you my love for you
Just lay with you to let you know I'm there
To let you know I'll always be there
Show me what it feels like to love
Show me what it feels like to be loved

 
Your Journey
 
We each have paths to follow in our lives.
Though we may not know where they lead,
Or how quickly they change course.
We diligently follow those paths,
Occasionally we stray,
Or get pushed off course.
Quickly we get back on track.
Knowing exactly where we want to go.
You have a path laid out in front of you,
A path you have so bravely fought for.
You have battled many a war to get here,
Overcome many obstacles.
Now,
You are finally on your way.
May your new journey be filled with greatness.
And may all your hopes and dreams come true.
We each have paths to follow in our lives.
Some try to make them for us,
Some fight for their own,
Good fight.
Continue fighting.
Continue winning.
Have a safe and happy journey,
Down this new path you have fought for.
 
 

 
Who has the key?
 
Secrets kept locked away
Deep inside
So no one may reach them
 
Secrets hidden far from reach
Deep inside
Your soul burdened by the weight
 
Trust kept away
By past mistakes
 
Trust again
 
Soul let go
Secrets no more
 
No more secrets
 
 

 

 

 

Where Am I?
 
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of tomorrow,
Looking for today.
Will I ever find it?
It's right in front of me,
Yet, so far out of reach.
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of tomorrow,
Looking back at yesterday.
Will I ever get over it?
Is time my friend or enemy?
What is a friend?
What is an enemy?
Are they one in the same?
How do I tell the difference?
 
Where am I?
Looking back at yesterday,
Dreaming of a better tomorrow.
Will I ever get it?
Do I deserve it?
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of forever,
Looking for happiness.
Will I ever find it?
Is it truly there?
Is it a myth?
 
Where am I?
Standing here looking for happiness,
Wishing for a love I can't have.
Will I ever find it?
Will I know when I do?
Do I deserve it after all I've done?
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of life.
Do I jump?
Do I stay and wait?
Wait, time, how much time is to much or not enough?
Is time my friend or enemy?
Will it ever show it's true colors?
 
Where am I?
Drowning in a sea of tears,
Hoping for peace,
Waiting for love.
What is love?
How do you truly know you're "in love"?
Is there such a thing, really?
Can loving someone be wrong?
Who has the power to make that decision?
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of today,
Staring reality in the face.
This cold, harsh reality called life.
Life.
Ever changing, ever evolving.
 
Where am I?
Alone in the dark,
With no one to hold me and tell me it's okay to come out.
Alone in the world,
With no where to turn.
Will I ever see the light behind the shadow?
Will I ever find peace?
 
Where am I?
Standing here, waiting to be held, to be loved.
Why do I feel so alone?
Am I alone?
 
Where am I?
Waiting,
Waiting for a touch, a look,
Something, anything,
To let me know it's okay to feel this way.
Have I gone to far?
Am I to close?
 
Where am I?
Shaking and scared
Scared of what is in store for me.
Scared of how I really feel.
Do I run and hide?
Or do I face it and learn from it?
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of tomorrow,
Looking for the light,
To find my way out of this darkness.
Will I ever find my way out of the darkness?
 
Where am I?
Standing here waiting,
Waiting for acceptance.
Should I have to wait to be accepted?
Or should it come naturally to everyone?
Why do I feel like I need to be accepted?
 
Where am I?
Standing on the edge of today,
Waiting,
Waiting for my future.
What's in store for me?
Who will be there with me?
 
Where am I?
Standing here loving you.
Can you love me, too?
 

 

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